What Have I Done To Suffer Like This?

As you may have known, I already resigned from my call center job. It's been two months already. I thought I would be admitted to the school I dreamed to be with but I was wrong. Until now, there were no positive responses. Then, I applied to every school that I might be admitted at, but unfortunately, there wasn't any school that would hire someone like me.

Who am I to be disliked like this? Who are they to judge me by just knowing a glimpse of me? Where would our God intends to put me in this cruel world?

Yes, I am still unemployed despite of being a graduate of Ateneo de Davao University. I cried and prayed for my situation to change but until now, I have no luck with schools. I even applied to colleges because I was guessing that I might not be suitable for High School because of my gender preference. There was one school, which name I won't mention, told me that they will hire me back in April. But after that, there were no response. I even completed my requirements as their College President requires me to do, but the moment that I would like to speak to her, she was rather off-campus, on-leave or had to leave due to some circumstances. It was as if she doesn't want to be in contact with me. 

It was so shameful then that even the not-so-prestigious-schools don't want to hire me. Am I that incompetent for a teaching job? They don't know my capacities yet, but I was already judged.

Now that June is fast approaching, I am frightened that I am really doomed to be a bum for almost a year again. As a way to held my pride, I intended to push through graduate school. Yes, it would be another studying and money-investing years for me and for my parents, but I have no choice.They won't hire me.

Just when I'm determined to teach, nobody wants to accept me. :(

On the other hand, I was not that doomed for I do have jobs online. Well, I won't consider this a job because I am earning below the minimum here in Davao City, Philippines when dollar converted to peso. It's via oDesk.com. It is a website that helping contractors like me find jobs that are offered by the providers in the different countries which are mostly from the US.

I was earning not that much yet, but I am determined (no choice) to give this my best shot because this is the only thing that I have. As a professional licensed teacher, it is so sudden to know that I have failed to become a full-pledge teacher. But I won't lose HOPE. Just like the Pandora's Box, everything may have happened but HOPE is always there for the rest of the humanity.

I hope you guys understood what I wanted to express. I just need to take this out from my system because it's already killing me inside. :(

Thank you for the sentiments, but I need a TEACHING JOB.