ONCE IN A LIFETIME

Its been a while when I last posted here. I don't know what to say actually. But now, I have some few things in mind.

Here we go: Life is a one-shot deal, no more second chances!

Yes, I failed again on my imagined "perfect job" for me. The job isn't as easy as how I imagined it to be. I have undergone their 3-day trainings but I failed their expectations (I guess?).

For a while, I have questioned God on what have I done to Him, and why is He giving me this kind of problem. But the answers are all up to me. It is all up to me to accept the fact that I have failed again. I'm thinking these experiences as to the challenge on how strong I am (still convincing myself).

I think what is wrong is within me. I have to admit that I am not really sure with myself and with what I am doing (pag sure ba!). I just don't know what path I'll take. All I know is I WANT TO BE SUCCESSFUL WITH EVERYTHING I DO (well, this is the usual statement I wrote way back in High School when I am asked to write something about the things I want to do in the future).

Believe it or not, I think the strong me has weakened. I don't know what to do now. I have so many plans but I cannot achieve those plans because I still don't have work. Even my LOVE LIFE is still as crucial as my CAREER.

Life really isn't favorable to me.

Sometimes, I just want a life like that of the online games character wherein you can redo things according to what you want, wherein you can use enhancers to make your character strong. wherein you don't have to worry anything because you can just report to the game masters if something went wrong. In short, I WANT AN EASY LIFE.

I should be through with this DRAMA now, but I just can't help but feel depressed on what I am going through now. Hopefully, one day, when I wake up, all these things will vanished.

Just some crazy thought: I wish HEAVEN is hiring so that I can APPLY. :)